Vanishing

*sigh*

I don't feel good about my body anymore.. not like I ever have. But. I don't feel it's good enough to go showing around the world. Heh..I don't even good even showing it around my house..

*sigh* No one wants to see a seventeen year old who looks like he's 40.

So here's good bye.

Damn This Economy

So.. as some may know.. I used to work for a candy store.. before the economy took a royal shit. Afterwards, the candy store's sales plummeted (because the dip-wads didn't realise that no one's gonna by $25/lb chocolate in a recession) and I was laid off.

And now I has no money. No money. No food. "BUT WAIT! AREN'T YOU SEVENTEEN!? WHY AREN'T YOUR PARENTS BUYING FOOD?!"

They do.. just insanely gross health food that's not real food but food-substitute. Gah. So I worry I won't be gaining as fast as I'd like for a while.. unless I mystically find money.

Despite this lack of funds, however.. I'm a lot happier overall with my life. I used to suffer from depression when I lived with my mother.. but after I came out.. and after I moved out of her house and realised a lot about myself.. I'm very content.. I've found a good bunch of people.. some of which are gainers.. I realised who my friends truly are.. and how to stand up for myself.. I don't take things so seriously nor do I take things to heart all the time..

*sigh* But if only I could defeat this relentless metabolism. Now *that* would be awesome.

So.. WTF..

So like I was talking about in an earlier post, I hate it when gainers just blatantly ignore you when you try to talk to them. As pathetic as it is, I lost sleep to it last night.. I went to bed at 1:30 or so and now I just gave up, five and a half hours later.

It wouldn't matter to me so much if he and I didn't have the same build and were virtually the same age (he's been saying he's fifteen since I was fifteen).. and even though he ignores me, I take it more personally than if it were anyone else because of those things in common and I try to see the good in people. The people I've talked to though who I asked about the situation just said to forget him cuz he's an ass if he doesn't want to talk to me.. or that he's missing out.. but.. I guess the point of this blog isn't mainly about gainers or anything, but.. is our world that isolated and pathetic that people are gonna be asses to you because they weigh more than you?

Has our species become *that* pathetic? Almost all of the gainers I've met are pretty decent people and some of them are some of my best friends.. but seriously.. life's too short for this bullshit.

And I'm sorry.. I just needed to vent. If you'd like, tell me how you'd deal with this situation if you were in my position.

So close to 170..

So.. I've gained a little weight (the last picture is me sucking in, btw).. what do you think? Bigger? :O

Freaky..

Someone else from my hometown came across the page (I figured it out view the Feedjit thing).. and I'm kinda scared.. O_o..

How do I know it's not me? I don't run Vista.

O_o.. if I randomly pull everything down.. it's only me being paranoid.. unless the other person from my town of Grafton.. wants to say who it is. =]

Flabby...

I wish I wasn't so muscular..

Because I wish I could have a soft, flabby belly.. not the stomach I do have.. which I think is gross. So.. how can I get that jiggliness? :O Or does it just come with time?

I don't want a hard belly; that isn't fun at all.

A Needed Introduction..

So.. along with the new pictures of me at 167.. I might as well introduce myself; something I have neglected to do a while ago.

So first the basics. My name is Tony. I'm 17 years old and I started gaining first when I was 15.. and then later I finally started truly gaining just last August. When I started, I was roughly 149. Now, as the above paragraph says.. I'm around 167 pounds. I'm 6' 0", if that helps put things into perspective.

I first started noticing that I liked gaining and what not when I was twelve when I saw an episode of Ed, Edd, and Eddy.. when Ed sleep-eats and continues to get fatter and fatter as he goes through his neighbours' kitchens and ate everything. Then when I was around 14, I stumbled upon a video on youtube; I was bored and typed in "fat bellies" and searched it.. and thus, I was baptised into the world of gaining. Never did I think that people would purposely gain weight.. I mean, getting fat is an accident, right?

...nope. =] And now, three years later, I'm here. Still battling my damnable metabolism.

I do have other interests though than just eating.. I love video games, and I love all kinds o' music.. save for rap and country.. sorry, but I just cannot stand that C. RAP. I'm a junior in high school, but I graudate next year in January.. I don't watch TV much; I'm usually playing XBOX 360 or even reading. I used to run track as a sprinter (one of the fastest too.. varsity as a freshman) and I'm a black belt in Tae Kwon-Do.

I don't mind meeting new people so if you wanna talk, by all means introduce yourself. =] My AIM = TheBoyFromUlao.. just say how we know lest I be confused. I do have YIM (wigainerboy92) but I'm rarely on that. :\ YIM and I don't play nicely.

ANYWHO! To sum up--and realising this isn't a term paper--my goal is to be around 185 by June. Wanna help?